It's not fair!

The picture is of my little sisters baby boy Cayden. He is a year now. Ali got pregnant at 20 and had him 3 days before her 21st birthday. I feel like everyone around me is getting married and having baby's. I would not feel the worry I feel if I did not have that stupid clock ticking. It is so not fair that men can have baby's up until 70 and we have until we are 35 to have a safer pregnancy and until about 42 give or take to have children all together. I am sure I will have all I want out of life (marriage and children) but I am tryign to do that when it is the right time. But like many women I fear I will wait to long and than no be able to have a child. No woman would feel this if we did not have that damn clock! It is so stupid we have the clock tick tick and we are mostly in charge of the birth contol when they can have babys for so much longer than we can. How many male bith contol ooptions that are there? We have a billion! Granted I do not know if I would trust any man to be in charge of the birth contorl when they often can not even remember to take out the trash but It would be nice if we as womend did not have so much presure!

Much too young to feel this damn old

So, I am only 26 but I have many days where i feel like I am 62. My ankle is getting better but hand carpal tunnel is killing me from my crutches. When I drink now, I am hungover for a good two days. At leas I am still young and stupid enough to still drink. I never got why older people would tell me that they cannot drink, they get too hungover. It is not like I need to be drunk to have a good time, it just happens to be that I have more fun when I am drinking most times.
I have a appointment at six pm today to get spray tanned. I have never had this done before. I fear I may turn orange. I am sure it will be fine. I have done the fake tan thing twice myself. The 1st time I turned orangeish but it is was lotion type goo. The second time I bought some spray stuff from Sally's and it turned out ok expect for the parts that I could not reach. I just hope this tuns out ok. I hope I am a orange made of honner. Well my hand is killing me and I have to go apply to more jobs now.

Had fun, but broke myself

So, last night was perfect except that 1s picture is my ankle. Yep go me, I tried to walk while drunk and I failed. I have week ankles as it is and I am shocked that I have to sprained it in the last two years. That goodnees I hurt my self about 10 feet before we got the the hotel room at the end of the night. I LaNae am not a party pooper. I had my crutches in my my trunk from the last time I did this. I got one out of the car and I hobbeld to Perkins. I do not even have a hangover, just a sprained a, rug burned knee and I am sleepy. We had so much fun though. I just have to get my ankle beeter enoughf in the next week for the wedding. So my leason learned was when I have my bachalorette party, I have to have to a month before the wedding so I wil no be broken for my own wedding.

Last Fling before the Ring

Above is my craftyness. I am hosting a bacholorette party for my friend Amy this evening. I hate when people make the bride ware and ugly t-shit that is 3 times to big for them on there "last" night out. I am proud I think it turned out very cute! I had a lot of fun making it. I saw a lot of other iron on's at Joann's that I liked as well. I may start making my own shirts. This shirt cost about 12 bucks.
I am looking forward to tonight. I was not so much at 1st looking forward to the whole thing. I am the Made of Honer. I think I would have a lot more fun if I was closer to the person whom wedding I am in though. Do not get me wrong I love her to death. She does not have many friends and is a big home body. She has been with the man she is marring for almost eight years. He is ok for the most part but I still think she could do better. But she in in Love and they are happy so I am looking forward to supporting her.
Tonight will be a small group and most of us were good friends in high school. I am so glad that Amy just wanted to go to the bar and have a few drinks and have fun and did not want a big production. I am more looking forward to the hotel afterward. I am growing tired of the bar seen and having a sleep over with some of my long term girlfriends sounds perfect!

Please and Thank you

Sadly I feel these two words are no longer in the Vocab of most people. It is not that hard to say and it makes a large difference. This factor angers me the most at work. I am sure I would not be as bothered if I had a job in my field by now but I do not. I sell pull-tabs and people rarely say please or thank you and I still have to be nice to them because I make my money of tips. I am so ready to be done with work. I can no longer stand this job. I am looking for other jobs that are not in the legal field to get out of here but I worry about finding something a lot better because I feel that I will A) lose ambition to find a job in my field or B) like the people and the job to much that I will feel bad about leaving when I find something. I am very loyal to everything I do. My 1st job was at my ex-aunts restaurant I worked there until it closed. Second job as a housekeeper at the hotel down the road. I worked at that dump hotel until I was laid off. Then I got a job at Officemax, and I worked there for five years. The only reason I left Officemax was because my boss from there left to work for CompUSA and took me with him. Now if I could just get someone to interview me and see my loyalty I could find a job that I like useing the skills I worked my butt off in school to get. So I am done done with my rant only because durring the time it took me to write this blog I made 30 bucks and tips. Grrrr.... Ah it will work out right, that what my honey always tells me, but dose not make it any less fusterrating at the time.

St. Patty's Day

I was not even sure if I was going to go out for green beer day. I do not have a lot of money and I forgot to eat the Friday before and got way to drunk and I was very sick the next day. But..... I had the day off and so did my bf Adrienne and our good friend Matt offered to drive us, (arm twisted and gun to my head I know). I am so glad I went out though It was the best St. Pats day I ever had. The only thing that good have made it better would have been if Justin could have joined in the fun. The bottom picture is a is a pic in the parking lot before the long fun day of drinking began. Oh ya and I woke up at five am that morning and could not fall back to sleep so I stayed up. See hair all cute and do not have the stoke like drunk face. We started out day in St. Paul. Met this guy and his friend in the parking lot. Went to lots of bars and bam it is fiveish and my friend Matt has to go and Adrienne wants to go home too. When I start having fun I do not like to stop. So I ran into a guy that I knew in high school named Brandon and he took custodoy of me. Yes when I am drinking I do need a sitter sometimes at least I can admit it. We went to some more bars, then his friends house and then I do not recall if I called Amy or she called me but at about 11 P.M we were off to Champlin to hang with Amy, Erik and Melissa. We had a blast with lots of pics and chatting and capri sun bongs lol. So the other pic is me at close to 2 A.M but I am sure you can see what pic is pre 13 hour drinking spree. I do not understand beer goggles. I had a blast and I am very lucky I have such great friends and a understading boyfriend that lets me and my crazy friends lose to play.