checking in

I am tired and watching a movie but I thought would check in real quick. My job is going well, had a great time at the Pete show last night, had a nice date with bunk today, and lots of other good things. It sucks you do not have a lot of time to blog when things are going good but you have lots when things suck. The only thing that sucks for the most part at the min is that I broke my camera, Justin did buy me a warranty so I hope they will replace it.
We went to the Zoo today and I wondered what a baby flamingo looked like so I goodled it thus the pic above. Next time I go to the zoo I am going to bring a pad and paper so I can write down all my questions and google them later because I get lots of them there and the signs although I learn a lot from them never answer my odd questions and I forget them by them time I get to my computer.

Falling into place.

As you all know, I have been a bit lost over the last year. My health was poor, I have felt as I was in a rut so to speak with my relationship, had a very hard time finding a job and so on. Two and a half weeks ago I decided that I was done dwelling on everything that was wrong in my life and to focus on what I could change. I started with working out and then planned on doing the marathon, once the idea of the marathon went into my head I decided it was time to quit smoking. I have been smoke free for 13 days, 12 hours, 6 minutes and 37 seconds. Last night was Justin's last night as a smoker and I a happy that I have inspired him to quit. I started a new job Wednesday and so far I love it. It is temp to hire and I hope I get hired on. I find it funny that I technically graduated at the end of Dec. but I did not have the ceremony until last Friday. I do the walk for my mom and was bitchy about it the whole time. I was just bitter and I had only been smoke free for about five days. The poof a few days latter I got a job. Justin and I are doing a lot better now. I think I was just so unhappy with myself that I looked every thing as bad or could be better. I hope I get hired on at my new job but if not I will find something else. Thank you to my friends and family that had to put up with me over the last nine months or so. Life is good.

I got a JOB!!!!

Yep that is right, Ms. LaNae, not a paralegal, but a para-assistant! It is a start. It is full-time hours. mom-fri, nine to fiveish! It is in Woodbury, I will find out more tomorrow. I cannot wait! At the end of this month I no longer sell pull-tabs. I am working my weekend shifts here for the rest of this month and then I get a whole summer with weekends off! I will pick up shifts at Prom if I want some extra money. It will take me time to get caught up on my bills but, I want to enjoy my summer. I have not had a good Summer in forever! I will not have to request time off to do things on weekends, and I will have money to go out and do things! This is so great. I just had to changed my attitude and every thing is falling into place.

I have been smoke free for 8 days, 10 hours, 1 minute and 33 seconds


Cigarettes NOT smoked: 135
Lifetime Saved: 1 day
Money Saved: $32.90

Justin is going to quit this weekend, ah, I will have one crabby boyfriend for a bit but it will be worth it in the long run.

Woot woot!

Smoke-Free: 7 days, 13 hours, 54 minutes and 3 seconds


Cigarettes NOT smoked: 121
Lifetime Saved: 22 hours
Money Saved: $28.78

I have made it a week. It was one hard week but I did it. I was going to rant but I will have to save that I am tired, that is the bad part about quitting. You are tired all the time and you sleep like crap, but you can smell good and bad, and you can taste! Ah, ok bye.

I can do it!

I have now gone 32 hours with out smoking. Am I am going crazy? You bet you ass. Do I want to kill a random person at times? oh ya. Did I laugh my ass off on my way home last night when I tried to ash my dumb dumb sucker out the window? Yes and it was great! The two minutes of laughing were great the other 12 min of my drive was total hell! It is not to hard at home I have video games and and can freak out how ever I feel like it. I signed up for quitplan.com and it has been a great site. I mostly read to to post a whole lot but it helps to read about other people that are quitting and gives lots of ideas of how to make the quit stick. I just cannot wait until I do not feel quit so nuts as I do right now. My whole body is off. But every day it will get better and I start training tomorrow for my 1/2 marathon. I am so pumped about the better choices I am making for my life.

I am going to do it

Tomorrow I am going to begin training to run a 1/2 marathon on Aug. 30. My friend Tasha is doing it and I have been running (no pun intended) the idea of doing one though my head the last week. My friend Tasha posted on facebook that she is going to do that marathon and she is going to start training this week. So here I go I am going to go from someone that has never been a fan of running to training for a marathon. I think this is something I need to do. I want to lose some weight and I need to accomplish something and this is something that I am capable of doing. AH I am very excited and very nervous. I am hoping once I start the running that the I will quit smoking as well. If I do this I will not have to worry about the weight gain from quitting smoking and honesty that is one of the biggest reasons that I have not quit.

So did not go bowling

Yes, Yes, I know I ranted that I wanted to go but I got home from work and realized A) the coupon I was going to use is not good until today and B) way nerdy I know but it was Thursday and my T.V shows were on. I watch bones and Hells Kitchen. I did not finish Hells because it was the boring 1/2 of the finale. I went to Jimmy's with Adrienne, Matt and Ryan. Then we dropped of my car and went to Bamboo Betty's and rode and electronic bull. I will put up pics when I get them from Matt is was fun. I forgot my camera in my car now that I have one again! I had a nice time last night with no drama. I needed that. I was almost going to stop going out, ah trix are for kids silly rabbit. Ryan came up and we talked until 3:30 am, therefore today I am sleepy.
Today I learned that my computer is too old of my 4gb card, that sucks, I will have to transfer the pics I have via usb when I get home.

Standstill

I just feel stuck. I have decided I am going bowling tonight. I do not care if I go alone asked a few friends to go. I love my home nights but I love to be out as well. I am trying to learn that leaving my home does not have to involve getting drunk. I have a few friends that I can go out and just have 1-3 with but so many of the people I love to play with the idea of doing something and not having a drink in hand is just not some thing they care do do. I apply for some many jobs everyday, I hate this job I am at right now. I need change! I feel like I need to change every single thing in my life but there are a lot of things in my life that I love. I know ramble ramble, what to do. This is the same blog I have wrote over and over and over but nothing changes.
I got to work at Prom on Tue. I hope I get to work more. I had a interview yesterday small chance in hell that I got the job. Not enough experience in what they want and I had to do testing! I hate taking tests for jobs. It is so useless. I have test anxiety and the whole point is stupid. You have tools in the real world! If you want to test me have me do the fucking job for a day unpaid and see how I do. Less than an hour left of work and I cannot wait to leave. I have only sold 20 tickets and I am mega hungry!! I think I will have to eat some candy when I get home because Justin gets home an hour and a half after I do and I will eat one of the cats if I have to wait that lone. No I would never eat my cats, A) Ick and B) I love them. Good thing I do not have many male readers or they would make a pun about eating my cats hug hug eating pussy. Ok I think I am done bitching for a while but I feel better. I am sure this has no flow or logic but it is a blog and you are still reading it so it must not be that bad.