Standstill

I just feel stuck. I have decided I am going bowling tonight. I do not care if I go alone asked a few friends to go. I love my home nights but I love to be out as well. I am trying to learn that leaving my home does not have to involve getting drunk. I have a few friends that I can go out and just have 1-3 with but so many of the people I love to play with the idea of doing something and not having a drink in hand is just not some thing they care do do. I apply for some many jobs everyday, I hate this job I am at right now. I need change! I feel like I need to change every single thing in my life but there are a lot of things in my life that I love. I know ramble ramble, what to do. This is the same blog I have wrote over and over and over but nothing changes.
I got to work at Prom on Tue. I hope I get to work more. I had a interview yesterday small chance in hell that I got the job. Not enough experience in what they want and I had to do testing! I hate taking tests for jobs. It is so useless. I have test anxiety and the whole point is stupid. You have tools in the real world! If you want to test me have me do the fucking job for a day unpaid and see how I do. Less than an hour left of work and I cannot wait to leave. I have only sold 20 tickets and I am mega hungry!! I think I will have to eat some candy when I get home because Justin gets home an hour and a half after I do and I will eat one of the cats if I have to wait that lone. No I would never eat my cats, A) Ick and B) I love them. Good thing I do not have many male readers or they would make a pun about eating my cats hug hug eating pussy. Ok I think I am done bitching for a while but I feel better. I am sure this has no flow or logic but it is a blog and you are still reading it so it must not be that bad.